Mood Meter

Conditions:
. wake up with swollen, sore eyes
. feeling all cranky
. a lil vulnerable
. insufficient sleep since i was busy the whole nite, tryin to figure out possible suggestion to give to my dad

--- current meter level: 80% moody ---

But then i thought, hell with it! I'm so goin to start a cheerful (or if not possible, semi-cheerful) day. So as much as i so feel like starting my day mourning and gettin all solemn, i told myself to pack up and be stronger and put on a SMILE!

Positivity! Remember, positivity!

--- current meter level: 65% moody ---

Then i head down to the living room and my dad will start whining *has been happening every single morning before work and every single evening after work*

"I am so tormented. Life sucks. I wanna die, let me die. Everything is so hard to solve."

Finished with them sentences, he would sigh every one or two minutes. Yknow, those [i'm-so-desperate-damn-it!-this-is-nothin-but-bad-ending] sighs

Tried to give him some suggestion, since i've been doing some thinking the whole nite.

No, he wouldnt even wanna listen to any of my opinion. He ignored me and went on and on screaming out the same phrases with super gloomy face.

Okay... i wasn't trying to imply that i'm an excellent problem-solver and my suggestions will so going to definitely solve the cases. Still, listening to any suggestion is better than to get all cranky and do nothin, agree??

--- current meter level: 90% moody ---

ermm NOPE, lets make it 95%

--- current meter level: 95% moody ---

Despite the fact that im not really religious person, i gotta say, those verses from the bible really help me out A LOT.

I'm motivated to become a better me, or to face each day with optimism (and this is hard, i'm pesimistic by nature).

Whats the point of drowing myself in sorrow when i could try to make the best out of my days. But still, its so hard to get myself feeling happy when i have to listen to endless sulking.

First i thought, okay, its hard. So i better try harder, think of MORE happy stuff, dont give in! Mission accomplished on the 1st day.

Second day?? Almost fail, almost.

Third day, Forth day, xxxx day?? Hard!! Big time failures.

Seems like no matter how hard i try to be optimistic, all the sighs and groans are killin it. Oh, and dont get me started bout havin to look at the gloomy expressions all day/nite long.

You feel like doin some business expansion and adding a few more expensive machineries to the company?? DO IT!!

You planned it all out and suddenly, theres a lil bit of problems here and there?? HANG ON and try to SOLVE IT!!

Stop whining... or even if u wanna whine, whine ONCE, or max TWICE. Dun whine continuously 10 - 20 times a day bout the same issue la.

okay, im done bitchin bout it, too. Looks like im gonna need more smoke to relieve my tension.

--- meter level after a smoke or two: 70% moody ---